What make me suffer?

I often suffer because I'm a sensible and timid person. I suffer when I look that nobody calculates me even if I'm not an egocentric person.

I feel hurt when my friends and other people speak badly about me, when they take game of me.

When people don't feel well I suffer for them or when I don't know how help a friend.

This is bad because I want that everyone feel well and that they haven't problems.

I suffer when I'm jealous of the relationship among two people, because maybe I want the same things but I cannot have them.

I don't know what are the reason that I can't have that things, maybe because I'm more likeable than other people and this give me anger.

When people ignore me I feel hurt and I keep to myself, so friends come to me and ask me what I have, but they don't understand that I feel bad for their guilt.

For example I have suffered a lot when my boyfriend had left me, because I have felt betray.

I have been badly for a lot of time and only few friends have been nearby me.

Sufferings have made me stronger and now I smile even if something isn't all right.

Now I understand what are the very problems and delusions aren't anything unlike the sufferings that happen in the world.