What makes me suffer?

I'm my own worst enemy.

When I annoy myself I feel so irritated because I know that it is my fault.

It's my fault if I say something! It's my fault if I do something! It's my fault if I want to deal with a topic that might be difficult for me to face... but I always tend to do that, just because I want to know what others think and if what I am thinking is correct.
On the one hand this behaviour is right, on the other hand I am always wrong after these arguments because even if I know what I have to do I usually let the matter lie because for me it's difficult to accept that I'm in error.

My same laziness makes me suffer. I would like to sleep and sleep, or lie in the bed and listen to music without any duty.

Another thing that makes me really suffer is my ostentation, my arrogance. Usually I am very kind, but I don't take to much to be angry and therefore reply in a negative way. Even my brother hates me when I behave in this way.

Sometimes I am very moody, that is why in a moment I am happy or kind and in other one I am furious or sad.

I hate when somebody says that I'm hypocrite. I know what kind of person I am and this is the last thing that I could be. I even could be a jealous person, a vitiated child, a crazy and moody teenager, but I will never be a hypocrite.

What makes a friend "good"?

A friend is a person. Some people believe that human's best friends are dogs, but why? Talking to a dog is like talking to a person?! No, of course it isn't!

A friend is THE person. It is the person who won't judge you, but who will counsel you about everything. I don't need a fan who will always tell me that I'm right or I'm the best. I need somebody that will open my eyes or somebody that will speak plainly with me. This tells you how much a friend loves you.
I mean, if a friend tells you what he really thinks or criticizes a behaviour that you are having, hazarding your friendship,then you will know that for him you are important. And if there are problems a friend will solve it unhesitatingly.

Recently I have changed my crew...my group of friends. It happens because I was sad to be in a group where only one person means something and where the others were like dogs who followed this “leader” in everything and everywhere.... Hum..I was a dog!

I talked about this situation with a girl in my class and she was so nice and kind with me that I started to talk more and more with her on a chat and on Fridays (during the fourth hour of school when we always have a free hour) since when we started to go out together. Then I knew her friends, and they were so nice and adorable and happy and made me happy that I started to hang around with them. But this new friendship that I found didn't get well with the once I already have...In really the old crew didn't get well with the new...And so the first group of “friends” began to gossip about my new friends and about me. I hated that. Therefore I tried to solve this problem, but they were so unpleasant that I cut off with them.

With this I just wanted to say that people change...Not Friends. You can't change your friends just because you want. It happens only because we always try to be happy.

When I started to hang around with this new gang, I felt like I could tell them everything and this didn't happen with the others...so now I am asking myself why they were my friends? I have always known what kind of people I was attending but I was scared to make them suffer if I would break with them. And I don't want anybody to suffer.
Now I see that they don't care if I am with them or not. And I am happy that my new gang is better than the other. I am saying that because I have some proves too!

Friends are that people like the ones I have now. I hope that all will find some friends like mine one day.

I didn't write about what makes a friend because you can't make your friends. You can't choose your friends... They come to you.
And you can't even left them when you want just because you are fed up!
As time goes by, you can just make your decisions to be happy or stay alone.